I think therefore I 'am...

hello my sweet friends and readers!

It's been a while since my last entry ...and to tell you the truth I'm having writers block...that dreadful mental condition where your mind freezes and hibernates or is contemplating other issues..there were many times where I would sit at my desk and ponder on what to say...believe me ...when the old grey matter starts it's slow moving decent down memory lane all sorts of interesting things happen...inspiration does come knocking on my door..and sometimes it literally pounds so loud I think it's a bill collector waiting to disconnect my cable, hydro or telephone bill!!...lol...or a past credit card amount that was due and the ghost of the past is coming to visit me with tin cup in hand!....lol.Sometimes life gives you dull cards and it's your turn to show them and then you gallantly leave the table..hoping for better times...and luck....oh yes...luck I forgot that she is a lady!...I have a theory about luck..and it's a good one..You reallllllllllllllly do design your own luck...and people are lucky for good reasons..they are doing the same things other lucky people are doing to achieve their goals...yes...luck...lady luck...her royal highness of tease!...Can I bow down to you with my red roses, hoping you might take the time to say hello? Lady responds..I know you..and thank you my dearest man...but I need more then roses from you!!..Well...that didn't work did it?...lol...Ok...so what do we do to get respect from her royal higness of luck?...Well here it is...right from the horses mouth!!...(by the way that horse won at 30-1 odds.....lmao) You can wine and dine lady luck...but if you treat her like a vixen streetwalker she will drop you in ten seconds flat!!...Who said that?...Well one night it came to me in the form of a sentence...from nowhere...yes I do get thoughts relayed to me...from god knows where!!...lol..but there you have it folks!...Lady luck will date you ,but you need to know the rules!...She is finicky and picky who she dates...and knows that every person that wants her wants her for their own selfish reasons...not for her spiritual qualities and characteristics...so now you have it! If you want luck you better do the things that will attract her...or else she will be knocking on someone else's door..

Enough said..This entry is about thinking...of course a lot of you might want to know why I have crowned myself the verifiedbeliever..well it's a lonnnnnnnnnnng story...firstly, I have changed...people really do change...mentally and spiritually...I'am no longer the young beer guzzling musician of my twenties who loves to smoke mary jane..but now...I have re -invented myself!...and have realized that robotic actions of work are not what defines me!..We are really souls in phsyical form not bodies with souls as an afterthought!..You see...people must realize.. and it took me a while to perceive this..that the mind is a precious thing...and must not be wasted in robotic must do activities which keep the body alive..we must strive to do things to keep our vision of the soul alive within us...Musicians understand this!...There are so many times I would play my guitar to people I know and they would not respond or would be disinterested..Ok. let's let the cat out of the bag...god almighty ...she is screaming to high heaven!...I better give her some cat treats or she will claw me to death!....lmao...Anyway as a musician and singer song writer..I can faithfully say...that this keeps my sanity at bay..and to play and write music is great therapy and keeps me from going koo ka racha!....lol.. So..when I do play and write songs my soul visits me, and all sorts of things happen!...I can say this confidently and with a gentle smile...I have really re-invented myself and have vowed to create.. not be part of someone's else's plan to get rich!...you see...I think therefore I'am...brilliant words!...who said it, Aristotol? Who ever it was...he made absolute sense!..We must do the things we think about!...when you are on a assembly line fitting widgets to haligon lamp covers you are not thinking...You are part of a big long machine designed to make the owners rich and happy!...YOu see.. they don't care that you feel like a robot and don't like your job!..They only care about what's on the bottom line and if production is up or down...or if demand for products is steady and secure..Of course if you are happy doing these meaningless jobs then go for it!..Some people love the idea of acting like a robot..faking it!.. until ...the holy grail of fridays come dancing through!.Remember my entry about work?..lol...Maybe this lost soul is plurking his way to fridays!...happy as a clam and not caring if he's acting like a robot...he knows in his heart he is not one of those lifeless things but does those boring jobs so that he can live again...on friday nights...But do all people think like this?...Not really..a lot of people go to work bored silly and stressed out..So My job as the verifiedthinker is that if you don't like lemons ...well make and drink lemonade!.. and enjoy the sunshine while your main squeeze feeds you grapes under your pear tree!

Enough said on robotic careers!..I'm sure the president of General Motors is not amused!...lol.. So..feel free my dear readers to think ...I mean really think..becasue if you think and act on your thoughts you are truly you! and.. you will make your soul happy!...by the way...back to why people are not interested in my playing or singing...a lot of musicians have told me that when they play in bars and clubs and even at home.. there are very few people who really pay attention..and really focus on what the musician is saying or doing..YOu see...musicians...the good ones at least..play as a celebration of their soul's existance!! ..They are celebrating their soul and how mind, body, and soul has achieved harmony together!..If you can feel the musician's heart felt emotions...by god...celebrate with him ok!!???? You will catapult yourself to higher dimensions!!..and will feel the harmony and peace through the mutual synergy produced! ...All a musician really wants is for you to listen...and enjoy!...he gets paid handsomely by the smile and joy in your faces as he gallantly celebrates his soul!...March on brothers and sisters!!!...or shall I say rock on?....lol

so...my sweet friends and readers...in closing...please do not think and let your thoughts vanish as uselss thought waves..the universe has enough clutter!...it doesn't want any more..be constructive with your thoughts..don't just think...do...but make sure it is harmonious with the Universal mind and also make sure it serves humanity in a positive way..You see...people are really comfortable doing and saying the wrong things! If you pattern yourself to what you said two weeks ago..You are behaving like a robot does!..When he replays what the programmer imputed!..People are no different!..I use to smoke 20 years ago...because I could not be at peace with my marital situation..I smoked almost two packs a day..I loved the buzz it gave me!..The robotic programmed buzz!.. as I recall now..then...something miraculous happened!..My marriage broke down!..and I left the matrimonial nest almost crying..but some deep soul searching emerged!...after a while I began re-examining why I do things..and felt that the reason why I smoked was to mentally vacate a failing marriage..a stressful marriage...I smoked to achieve a sense of tranquilty...to escape the vicious bonds of being a prisoner of a senselss marriage..as I puffed..the world would go away..and all it's problems..My own little time space habit gave me a sense of security..hell...I kind of liked being a slave to my addictions..until..I left the marriage..bags and suitcases in hand..I threw my stuff in the back of my hatchback pontiac..stupidly looking back many times..for some sort of sign..from her..to stay..well.to tell you the truth i was tormented for many months as to when I would leave..leaving the kids who were 12 and 7 at the time was tough..and it made me feel I was deserting them..but today was the day..I felt stronger for some reason ..singing the tune in my head made it very easy to leave...the tune I suggest everyone contemplating leaving a loveless marriage should listen to..by simon and garfunkel I believe or was it simon only..well one of them sure made a terrific impact on me..The song 50 ways to leave your lover was a powerful kick ass song designed to motivate me to leave..those talented musicians sure knew what people were thinking about..I bet there are hundreds out there who probably did the same thing as I did...from hearing the song...drop off the key lee...played in my head..god ...I just remembered I still had the key to the house!! I ran back into the house...and sadly gave my mother in law the keys and told her I was never returning..I told her..she was the greatest and as far I was concerned I would never forget her but she knew instinctively that I would not be a regular person in her life anymore..and that my marriage with her daughter was over and done with!..Hey ..It lasted over 13 years...way past the magic number of the 7 year itch!..lol..Listening to my cassette tape of 50 ways..I sang all the way to the apartment I arranged to rent the previous day..Now it was official!..I was single again!..or at least I felt this way..I remember crying myself to sleep..and for some unknown reason I threw my pack of players cigarettes out the window!..vowing never again to smoke another one for the rest of my life!..You see..some people think a lot..before they make a deceision...but since i'm the artistic type and very creative and logical..I knew what I had to do..by listening to the song and realizing that the bad marriage was the reason why I was smoking cigarettes..I no longer associated smoking with a bad marriage..because of this I became totally free and quitting cold turkey was easier then pie!..Wanna piece?...lol..

Well a lot of you are probably wondering what all this has to do with thinking...but you need to understand this is how I think..To solve a problem I look for clues within my life..clues or songs which hit home really hard!..and from this I get the strength I need to follow through!...You see.. if I had to think about leaving I would torment myself so much that I would blow a fuse mentally and this would even be more stressful!..So my sweet freinds 20 years later I'm writing to say I have never once smoked.. and kept my promise not to smoke!...Using my mind now...rationalizing the good that came from quitting a disgusting habit such as this!..Saving about 3000 a year and getting a new set of clean lungs after the 6th or 7th year is something to be proud of!!..and is well worth the effort!..I saw the problem.. rationalized the reasons and projected the benefits of acting in a positve way!!

Yes my dear friends and readers..building character this way is what life is all about!..step by step..little by little I'm becoming a better and better person..with my beliefs becoming my rock..and my foundation to thought now and for thought which will emerge in the future!...I think therefore I'am..Trick is..to think the right thoughts based on core beliefs which molds character in a positive way!..not in a negative way..if you need money...don't think of a plan to dig a tunnel under the bank where the money is stored ..the consequences of such an action has only one result...and that is your local slammer!

I thank you my sweet people for your comments.. little as they are..but it's better to influence one person in a positive way then not to influence anyone at all!!..stay well...love your family..get to know your freinds better..listen to what they are saying..Look at life in a different way..smell the flowers!..and look at life in a positive manner!..We are all on borrowed time and we really don't own anything except the rock called our soul..and for our next entry...well......let's do what some musicians do and play it by ear!!lol..love yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!